Appearance Struggles with Weight Loss

One of the things that no one really tells you you when losing weight is how to cope with your new self. You think great I’m going to lose this much weight I’m going to look amazing and I’m going to feel amazing. Yet when you lose a certain amount of weight those thoughts seem to go right out the window, or at least they have for me.

I’ve lost 27lbs so far and things seem harder then they did before I started losing the weight. I still have the mentality of being horribly over weight and only being comfortable in sweatpants and large t-shirts. No matter what I wear its just never makes me feel good or pretty. Its totally a mind over matter thing but as everyone knows that’s easier said then done.

Losing weight is a life style change. Its not just about the changing of your eating habits and exercise habits but its also a mental change. How you see yourself needs to change both inside and out. Question is how does one do this? I wish I had the answer since clearly I’m struggling to be happy with my body. Don’t get me wrong I’m SO happy with how far I’ve come and what I’ve done I just wish I was happy with the results physically. I hear everyone tell me how great I look and how far I’ve come but I don’t see that. I don’t see myself looking good in anything. I am constantly trying on clothes in my closet thinking oh this will look good and then I go to the mirror and it comes off faster then a dress on prom night 😉

Some how mentally I have to figure out how to over come this obstacle. I thought I was alone in this struggle when in fact talking with friends who are losing weight that they too are struggling with this. I try and encourage them and tell them how amazing they look and how awesome they are doing yet for some reason I can’t tell myself that. While my mental block wont stop me from keeping on my journey it sometimes hinders it, it happens to the best of us; but I’ve got to keep pushing and keep trekking to be the better me. Just need to start pushing the negative thoughts about myself away and start looking at my successes. Small steps right?

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Motivation? You got it!


This right here is one of the reasons I started this blog. One reason was for accountability but another was to help with motivation. I want someone to read this blog and say “If she can do this so can I”. I want people to understand that diets are not just doing it once and hoping that it sticks, you have to change your lifestyle and your outlook on life to be able to see those changes and keep them off. Its a LIFESTYLE change both inside and out. And honestly I think that is what helped me get to where I am right now. Yes I know I’m only in this since the end of February but I’ve stuck with it BECAUSE of that mind set. I want someone to read this blog and find that motivation that I know everyone has in them but just needs that extra push or help.


Going at a lifestyle change like this by yourself I find sets someone up for failure. If you want to change your diet and your weight then you need to have a support system. If you start to fall of the bandwagon you need someone to help lift you back up and kick you in the butt to keep you motivated. Also having your friends and family behind you makes a world of difference. If you have negative people in your life pushing you down and not cheering you on then more than likely it will start to bog you down. While I know sometimes those negative comments can really motivate someone the constant negative comments start to bottle up after awhile and I say that from personal experience. I am what I make myself but I also have others that help me along.

One of my favorite quotes because in the end its true but it took me forever to realize this. I would like to say that every single person is beautiful when in reality there are some that are not but that has more to do with their morals and personality or lack their of lol. But really almost every person is beautiful regardless of what you think of yourself. You have to find yourself in your own journey and once you do it will make the journey a whole lot easier.

I really hope that I can help motivate someone here reading this blog that feel like they just can’t do it. When in fact ANYONE can change their life and their lifestyle if you have the right mind set and support system to do so.

Some amazing inspirational quotes that I keep on my computer and phone to remind me daily that what I’m doing is the right thing and that I CAN and WILL succeed and be the new happy healthy me. Maybe you will find a favorite too 🙂

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Now onto some awesome and AMAZING recipes!

veggie soup

Hamburger Veggie Soup: only 4points plus for 1.5 cups of this delicious meal!

1 lbs ground beef
1 medium onion, chopped
1/2 large green pepper, diced
4 garlic cloves, minced
8 cups beef broth
2 cans (14.5 oz each) Italian stewed tomatoes
1 package (9oz) frozen cut green beans
1 can (8oz) tomato sauce
1 cup of small pasta
1 tbsp Worcestershire sauce
2 tsp dried oregano
1 tsp dried basil (can use fresh chopped)
1/2 tsp pepper

In dutch oven or soup kettle, cook the beef, onion, green pepper and garlic over medium heat until beef is no longer pink. Drain.

Stir in the remaining ingredients. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat and simmer for 30 minutes or until veggies and pasta are tender.

YIELDS: 10 servings (1.5 cups per serving).

Chicken Rollantini Stuffed with Zucchini and Mozzarella. 4PP per chicken


1 tsp olive oil
4 cloves garlic, chopped
1 1/2 cups (1 medium) zucchini, shredded
1/4 cup + 2 tbsp Romano cheese (or parmesan)
3 oz part skim shredded mozzarella
salt and pepper to taste
8 thin chicken cutlets, 3 oz each
1/2 cup Italian seasoned breadcrumbs
1 lemon, juice of
1 tbsp olive oil
salt and fresh pepper
olive oil non-stick spray


Wash and dry cutlets, season with salt and pepper. Preheat oven to 450°. Lightly spray a baking dish with non-stick spray.

In a large skillet, heat oil on medium-high heat. When hot saute the garlic 1 minute, or until golden. Add zucchini, 1/4 cup Romano cheese, salt and pepper and saute about 3-4 minutes, stirring occasionally. Set aside to cool. When cool, add mozzarella cheese and mix to combine.

Lay chicken cutlets down on a working surface and spread 3 tbsp of zucchini-cheese mixture on each cutlet. Loosely roll each one and keep seam side down.

Combine breadcrumbs and remaining 2 tbsp of Romano cheese in one bowl; in a second bowl combine olive oil, lemon juice, and pepper.

Dip chicken in lemon-oil mixture, then in breadcrumbs and place seam side down in a baking dish (no toothpicks needed). Repeat with the remaining chicken. When finished, lightly spray with oil spray.

Bake 25 – 30 minutes. Serve immediately.


So here it is Friday and I’m just exhausted from the week. My oldest daughter Makayla turned a whole hand on Wednesday and we spent the day at a huge play place for her birthday just the family. They had a blast so much so that the ride back was tears from being exhausted. We got home with the birthday girl asking where were all of her presents haha. Oh how that little big girl knows how to work mom and dad 🙂

4Happy Birthday Miss Makayla

Still sticking to Insanity and doing pretty well with it. My legs are starting to feel like jello and my abs are being used more than I ever thought they would haha. But I am enjoying it for the most part. My biggest frustration is fighting off the puppy from attacking me while I’m doing my mummy kicks. Guess he thinks its time to play! But hey I completed day 9 yesterday and on day 10 today! That’s some big steps!!! WOOHOO

So these past couple of days I’ve made some pretty kick ass meals that I will totally be added to my meal lists for each month. Not only are they tasty but they are super easy to make!

Santa Fe Chicken. 4point meal for 1 cup chicken and mixing.
Now this meal is from Skinny Taste. Now the corn and beans were spicy a little to spicy for the kiddos but the chicken wasn’t and they ate that and the rice faster then I could keep it on their plate. The best part of this meal was that it cooked in the crock-pot so I didn’t have to do much work!

  • 24 oz (1 1/2) lbs chicken breast
  • 14.4 oz can diced tomatoes with mild green chilies
  • 15 oz can black beans
  • 8 oz frozen corn
  • 1/4 cup chopped fresh cilantro
  • 14.4 oz can fat free chicken broth
  • 3 scallions, chopped
  • 1 tsp garlic powder
  • 1 tsp onion powder
  • 1 tsp cumin
  • 1 tsp cayenne pepper (to taste)
  • salt to taste

Combine chicken broth, beans, corn, tomatoes, cilantro, scallions, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, cayenne pepper and salt in the crock pot. Season chicken breast with salt and lay on top.
Cook on low for 10 hours or on high for 6 hours. Half hour before serving, remove chicken and shred. Return chicken to slow cooker and stir in. Adjust salt and seasoning to taste. Serve over rice or tortillas and your favorite toppings.

Chipotle Chicken Salad. 5points for 2 cups

Now this simple meal is great for a lunch. Make it the night before and have it ready for the next day! It was really good but my goodness was it spicy. Next time I make it I wont add as much cilantro since I’m not the biggest fan and instead of the chipotle chile, canned in adobo sauce I may just put in diced green chili’s. But if you like the kick I say try it and love it! Nice change up on salad.


1/3 cup chopped fresh cilantro
2/3 cup fat free sour cream
1 tablespoon minced chipotle chile, canned in adobo sauce
1 teaspoon ground cumin
1 teaspoon chili powder
4 teaspoons fresh lime juice
1/4 teaspoon salt
4 cups shredded romaine lettuce
2 cups chopped roasted skinless, boneless chicken breasts (about 2 breasts)
1 cup cherry tomatoes, halved
1/2 cup diced peeled avocado
1/3 cup thinly vertically sliced red onion
1 (15-ounce) can black beans, rinsed and drained
1 (8 3/4-ounce) can no-salt-added whole-kernel corn, rinsed and drained
To prepare dressing, combine first 7 ingredients, stirring well.
To prepare salad, combine lettuce and remaining ingredients in a large bowl. Drizzle dressing over salad; toss gently to coat. Serve immediately.

Hope those that are following my blog enjoy it so far! Leave me a comment if you do I would love to hear from you! ❤

Why should I change me?

I’ve never been that “skinny” girl in life. I’ve always been a “bigger” girl and I use that term loosely because I wasn’t what you would call overweight but instead I was muscle and a lot of it in areas. I had meat on my bones along with a bigger chest, big thighs and a bubble butt. Those come from 20 years of playing sports mostly ice hockey growing up. Its what made me a dominant force out on the ice was the power and strength in my legs. Now I’m 29 with 3 kids and I weigh more than I have ever weighed before. It started when I had kids but I can’t blame them completely for how my body turned out (I will continue to remind them these lovely stretch marks are from them lol) but the rest was me. I was the one being lazy, I was the one eating the unhealthy foods because it was easy and I was the one who was making excuses. I decided it was time for a change when my oldest said to me while getting dressed….”mommy why does your body look like that its sagging everywhere, I hope mine NEVER looks like that.” Nothing like a 4 year old putting thing into perspective for me. She doesn’t really understand and I hope for her down the road she never has to understand what its like to be unhealthy. After that day I told my husband I need to do whatever it takes to fix this. I need to be healthy for my kids, my family and for most of all for ME!

So for me to start being healthy and getting to be the better me my first and foremost step was ACCOUNTABILITY. I needed to make myself accountable for my actions. Needed to stop blaming others for what I was doing to my own body and realizing that I should have control of it.
Second step for me was finding the resources that would help me meet the small goals to then reach my ultimate goal in the end. First one was getting myself the Fitbit flex, I’ve been saving up my precious money for a long time to get me one of these puppies and now that I have it I LOVE it! It tracks my steps, calories burned, and even tracks my sleep patterns (which shows I really don’t sleep very well, thanks kids and puppy lol). My next purchase was that of my new life style eating change. And I can thank weight watchers for helping me with that. I can eat good meals even ones I was already eating and know how many points each item is. Its like calorie tracking but for me slightly easier. I’ve been on WW for a little under a month and I LOVE it! If you have are up in the air check out their WW Simple Start. After I had all of this it was now finding a workout that I would love. I’m not a huge gym fan since I don’t like going with all the other people around. I will still go a couple of times a week but I needed something I could do at home in the comfort of my own house where I could look like an idiot and the only ones laughing were my kids and the dog. I really wanted to do one of Shaun T’s videos but they were so expensive for me to try without knowing if I would like it or not. So my friend let me borrow her Insanity DVDs and I fell in love! So awesome and I’m only of day 4! But I can already feel muscles I forgot I had.
Step 3: Actually doing the work and keeping myself motivated and dedicated. The biggest reason for me to start a blog and a Facebook page was to keep myself motivated and to keep myself accountable. Hoping that maybe I could help inspire others to do what I am doing.

Everyone morning now I make myself and the kids breakfast. No more cereal for me I need to make a real breakfast since it is the most important meal of the day and sets your day in motion. I enjoy my morning coffee with it, catch up on my daily favorite blog readings and then head to Pinterest to check out my favorite motivational quotes. Without fail this is my morning whether the kids are in school or at home. I have to make sure to start my day off right.

SO I will end my post with some of my favorite quotes! Do you have any favorite motivational quotes you would like to share?