Appearance Struggles with Weight Loss

One of the things that no one really tells you you when losing weight is how to cope with your new self. You think great I’m going to lose this much weight I’m going to look amazing and I’m going to feel amazing. Yet when you lose a certain amount of weight those thoughts seem to go right out the window, or at least they have for me.

I’ve lost 27lbs so far and things seem harder then they did before I started losing the weight. I still have the mentality of being horribly over weight and only being comfortable in sweatpants and large t-shirts. No matter what I wear its just never makes me feel good or pretty. Its totally a mind over matter thing but as everyone knows that’s easier said then done.

Losing weight is a life style change. Its not just about the changing of your eating habits and exercise habits but its also a mental change. How you see yourself needs to change both inside and out. Question is how does one do this? I wish I had the answer since clearly I’m struggling to be happy with my body. Don’t get me wrong I’m SO happy with how far I’ve come and what I’ve done I just wish I was happy with the results physically. I hear everyone tell me how great I look and how far I’ve come but I don’t see that. I don’t see myself looking good in anything. I am constantly trying on clothes in my closet thinking oh this will look good and then I go to the mirror and it comes off faster then a dress on prom night 😉

Some how mentally I have to figure out how to over come this obstacle. I thought I was alone in this struggle when in fact talking with friends who are losing weight that they too are struggling with this. I try and encourage them and tell them how amazing they look and how awesome they are doing yet for some reason I can’t tell myself that. While my mental block wont stop me from keeping on my journey it sometimes hinders it, it happens to the best of us; but I’ve got to keep pushing and keep trekking to be the better me. Just need to start pushing the negative thoughts about myself away and start looking at my successes. Small steps right?

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Transformation Tuesday or should I say Wowza Wednesday

So I finally did my first #transformationtuesday yesterday. I was going through my husbands phone looking at pictures of the kids and found one from last October Apple Picking with the kids. I was in some of the pictures and I thought holy crap I was that fat! They say the camera adds 10lbs but I look like it added over 100lbs or at least I felt that. I knew I was big but I guess my mind was telling me I wasn’t as big as I really was. So yesterday I had my 5 year old take pictures of me to see the progress and I can’t even explain to you how happy I was when I saw them. I feel like a whole new person even if its only 25 lbs. That 25lbs was a lot of work to come off and seeing it makes me even that more determined to get to my goal weight and to finally be healthy. #weightwatchers has done some amazing things for me and I don’t doubt for a minute that if I wasn’t on Weight Watchers I would still be at my heaviest maybe even heavier because I don’t know how to control my portions.

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Not bad if I do say so myself! You can tell especially in the tummy area that I’ve lost weight. I’ve still got my baby fanny pak hanging around but its so much better then it was before. My #arms need some major work as they haven’t changed much from when I was at my heaviest. Still got the flab that goes back and forth when I move. So I started to do some major arm workouts. I have simple dumbbells at home that are 7lbs. Doesn’t seem much but i have NEVER had a lot of strength in my arms its all been in my legs from ice hockey. So any weight that is heavier then a can of cream corn works for me right now haha. Hoping soon I can move up to 10 lbs weights one would think that after carrying around twins at the same time for the past 3 years I would have some massive arms of muscle but really I got nothin’ So today is the day I start my arm workout and hope by the time summer vacation starts with my family (end of June) I will have better toning. Then maybe that lovely shadow in the picture wont be there anymore that makes me look like I haven’t shaved my pits in months lol (just FYI they are shaved I blame my arm fat for making that lovely shadow).

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So my workout started with these: The ball workouts not only work your arms but work your core too. Trying to balance on those things is tough especially for beginners but once you get it works wonders. Don’t worry I may or may not have fallen a couple of times when doing the ball activity. Too bad it wasn’t on video because I could have entered that into America’s funniest videos.

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Not the best pictures but you get the jist. Otherwise here are the links:

http://weightdownweightloss.wordpress.com/2013/06/13/sexy-summer-arms-workout/
http://fitandfuckingfabulous.tumblr.com/post/37689895712/losing-every-extra-pound-sexy-arms-in-6-weeks

So ending on an awesome note I ended up getting a hair makeover. For those that know me I’m a ginger but once I had kids its started to get a little darker so I went dark for the first time in my life right after the twins were born. It was really nice change for me and we all know we need change. Well I missed my Ginger hair and I went this past weekend and got it cut and colored. I was a toe head for about 1/2 an hour before she colored it back to what is almost my true natural color. I’m so glad to have it back and while I’m not completely in love with the hair cut its the only one that would work to get my hair back to almost the same length all the way around. I had at one point a layered angle bob. It looked great short but long I looked like I hadn’t brushed my hair in years. So the end results was:
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Not to shabby. Love the red. My natural hair color is only slightly lighter but not by much. It really goes well with all my soul stealing freckles 😉

A little humor to end the post:
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It been a little while

So if you are still following me you will notice I have changed the look of my blog some. I wanted to make it more free flowing and easier on the eyes. I really love the new look and my new “me” character. She’s pretty cute!

So its been over a week since I posted last. I just never got enough time to sit down and put a lot of thought behind my post. But I need to at least make a little time for a quick update. So today instead I will do a big update on how everything is going…

So for the off week it was a pretty craptastic week in the health department. There was NO meal planning what so ever and I was so mad at myself for not doing so because I ate horribly and gained 3lbs back. BOOO! I was very ashamed and even did a little cry to my husband because I felt like a failure. It just really goes to show you show much of a lifestyle change being healthy is.

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So after a horrible week I decided to buy myself the Polar Watch for losing 15lbs (despite my 3lb gain). I use it right with my fitbit. For those that don’t know what a Polar Watch is its a Watch with a heart rate strap that you wear and it counts your calories and heart rate during each work out. Its the best investment so far I’ve bought through this journey. I love my fitbit and wear it daily but with field hockey I’m not getting the accuracy I want. With the polar watch it takes MY heart rate and uses it to calculate calories burned. I got the FT4 which on Amazon goes for $64.99-$70.00 depending on the color. I got pink only because it was the cheaper one out of all the colors lol. Not the biggest pink fan but hey it was cheaper so worth it right?! I HIGHLY recommend this to anyone who does a lot of working out. Its nice to know your heart rate and calories burned.
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So I am going on week 6 of the c25k program! Can I just say holy crap! I didn’t think I would make it this far but now it seems as though I’m starting to like running again. I’m still sucking wind don’t get me wrong but I’m doing it! And running for longer periods of time. For this fat chick thats a huge feat (not to be confused with feast lol). I have my first 5k at the end of the month for the Color Me Rad run! So excited for it too! I’ve already got my saying on my shirt planned out thanks to a friend of mine! He suggest I put on it… DO NOT PASS…Soul sucking Ginger (back) and then I thought on the front I will put You were warned I now have your soul and added another freckle. Total genius I tell ya!
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So I started back into Insanity again after taking a month or so off! So glad I did because I missed it completely!! I started my morning off with POP Pilates for Beginners as a new morning routine. Cassey over at Blogilates  has an amazing beginning workout. I have been wanting to do her workouts since shes keeps it fun and supportive. Try her out check out her videos she really is a lot of fun and there is something for everyone on her site! Figured I would try it every morning as low intensity workout and then finish off with Insanity’s high intensity workout.

My insanity fit test numbers:

Swift Kicks: 45
Power Jacks: 40
Power Knees: 60
Power Jumps: 36
Globe Jumps: 8
Suicide Jumps: 8
Push Up Jacks: 6 (struggled to do these with my bad hand couldn’t put a lot of pressure on it)
Low Plank Obliques: 26

Not bad numbers compared to my very first time which you can see my numbers here

 

RECIPES

So I came across some awesome recipes and even thought of one myself with a little help! Very excited that I’m become more of a cook then I ever was. My family always gives me crap that I never cook but when your parents make amazing dinners why the heck would I cook lol. Well now its my turn and the fam approves

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0 Point Soup (yes you read that right!)

8 cups FAT FREE LOW SODIUM chicken broth
1 cup peeled and diced carrots
1/2 head of cabbage diced
1/2 package of frozen green beans
1 medium onion diced
1 large zucchini peeled and diced (you can keep the skin on if you like)1 cup baby spinach chopped
1/2 cup kale chopped
1 cup mushrooms chopped
2 tbsp tomato paste
5 garlic cloves minced
1 tsp dried basil
1 tsp dried oregeno
1 tsp sea salt
1 tsp pepper
1 tsp Italian Seasoning
Pinch of Red Pepper flakes for some spice

Spray a pot with cooking spray and heat on MEDIUM HIGH. Add the carrots, onion and garlic and cook for about 5 minutes. Add all the remaining ingredients EXCEPT the zucchini and bring to a boil. Cover, reduce the heat to MEDIUM and simmer for about 15 minutes or until the beans are tender. Add the zucchini and cook until the zucchini are tender. Done! Easy Peasy

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Skinny Tastes Three Cheese Tortellini and Mushroom Soup (with some changes sorry Gina!) 4PP for 1.5 cups
changes to my dish are in bold
Ingredients:

  • 2 tsp butter
  • 2 stalks of celery, chopped
  • 1 small onion, chopped
  • 1 carrot, peeled & chopped (2 carrots)
  • 2 cloves of garlic, minced (4 cloves LOVE garlic)
  • 8 cups fat free chicken broth (vegetable broth for vegetarians)
  • 2 cups water
  • 5 oz shitaki mushrooms, sliced
  • 8 oz baby bella mushrooms, sliced
  • 1 small Parmigiano Reggiano rind (optional)
  • 9 oz three cheese tortellini (Buitoni)
  • salt to taste
  • 1/2 tsp fresh ground pepper
  • 1/2 tsp Italian seasoning
  • 1/2 oregano
  • pinch red pepper flakes
  • 1/2 ginger
  • Parmigiano Reggiano, grated (optional for topping)

Directions:

In a large pot, melt the butter over medium-low heat. When melted, add the celery, onion, carrot and garlic. Cover and reduce heat to low and cook for approximately 8-10 minutes until vegetables begin to soften.

Add the chicken broth, water, mushrooms, rind and increase heat to medium-high and bring to a boil. When broth boils, add salt (to taste) and black pepper; stir to combine. Reduce heat to low, simmer until mushrooms are soft, about 20 minutes. Add tortellini and cook according to package directions for al dente.

Once cooked, remove the rind, stir to combine and garnish with freshly grated Parmigiano Reggiano if desired.

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Spicy Shrimp and Shirataki Noodles (4PP)

Shirataki Noodles are Asian Noodles that you can find in grocery stores with the salads fixings. They are 0 PP per serving! How awesome right. Now make sure your rinse these well otherwise they don’t taste right. They really don’t have much of a taste so having spices helps 🙂

Spice Mix
3/4 teaspoon Italian seasoning
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1/4 teaspoon onion powder
1/8 teaspoon ground cayenne pepper
1/8 teaspoon smoked paprika

Two 8-ounce packages House Foods Tofu or Yam Shirataki spaghetti or angel hair noodles
2 tablespoons olive oil (I just used cooking spray)
1/2 cup diced red bell pepper
2 green onions (white and light green portions), trimmed and diced
1  pound large cooked  shrimp, peeled and deveined
2 garlic cloves, peeled and minced
2 tablespoons lime juice
1 cup halved cherry tomatoes
2 tablespoons chopped fresh cilantro

In a small bowl, combine all the ingredients of the spice mix, set aside.

Open the noodle packages and place in a strainer to drain, rinse, then use your hands to separate the noodles as you rinse them a second time. Drain again and set aside.

Heat a large skillet over medium heat, add olive oil. When the oil is hot, sauté the peppers, green onion, shrimp, and garlic. Once shrimp starts to brown add the noodles and cook for another 5 minutes. Remove and toss in cherry tomatoes

 

 

Hope you enjoyed the blog being back up and the new look! Let me know what you think!!! ❤

Monday…Monday…

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While most people are bitching and complaining about it being a Monday I’m off in my own little world skipping and humming my own tune because 1) this kids have school in the morning and I get to enjoy my coffee by myself in quiet and 2) I have field hockey to get my aggressions out from the weekend and previous week. So I’m sorry to all you Monday haters but I love my Mondays 🙂

So I haven’t updated in almost a week. I’ve been trying to keep up with workouts but I have a broken tooth that has been keeping me sidelined for insanity since its a lot of up and downs for work outs and it makes my tooth hurt. So on Thursday I get the thing FINALLY pulled after 6 months of pain. Once I recover from that I will be back into the insanity like I need and want to be. So I’ve been doing simple workouts which are high intensity to lessen the throbbing tooth pain. Working on my legs more than anything since its not as hard for me to do right now. Started doing the squat challenge. Don’t know what that is? Its a 31 day challenge where you up your squats each day with a rest day thrown in. Squats are pretty “simple” for me thanks to playing ice hockey for 21 years of my life 🙂 Most important thing is form obviously. If you do a simple squat wrong you can really hurt yourself if you aren’t carefully and really do some damage. I’ve seen people pop tendons in their calf muscles from doing this. Painful stuff. But if you do it right I’ve done this once and I noticed a nice toned change in my thighs! Good stuff 🙂
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So this past week I’ve made some AMAZING meals that I just HAVE to share with you. Click on each picture to get the recipes on how to make. Figured this way was easier so you didn’t have to scroll for an eternity just to get to a good recipe you want to try. As always thank you to the lovely ladies at Simple Nourished Living and Skinny Taste for their amazing recipes. I may have doctored some of them to fit my needs I didn’t have to go off course to much, if anything I added a little spices to them to give it slightly more flavor 🙂